Thursday, March 3, 2011

Finally

And finally I accept it..
it took me two months
2 weeks of anger
2 weeks of sadness
2 weeks of regret
2 weeks of happiness
and I ended it with a minute of crying
I accept it now...
I accept that you are really gone
It's not farewell... it's goodbye


13 comments:

A Citizen of Earth said...

You're playing at my heartstrings right now, Monwa!

These days, I can't seem to handle sentimental, emotional pieces without feeling like I'm going to cry.

Acceptance is harder than denial, I know. In fact I believe its the hardest stage of any revelation, I believe. Especially when people are trying to make you see it, saying, "How are you oblivious to it when it's right in front of your eyes?!" Except you don't know, or at times you don't want to know. You don't want to accept. To you, accepting is opening the door to vulnerability, hurt, and all that entails, and you're simply not ready to go through all that for that person. So you don't accept. You don't believe. You second-guess yourself.

I'm going a bit off-topic, please excuse me. Writing is my haven, and sometimes I forget where I'm writing. ;D

-ACoE

Monwa said...

ACoE: laish a7is I know you? :s missed you!

A Citizen of Earth said...

The problem is, I feel I know you too. A while back, I actually asked my close friend if she knew you. I have no idea why but I felt she did, but she replied that she didn't. So don't worry the feeling is mutual! ;)

Awww! I did too! :)

-ACoE

Monwa said...

MAYBE WE KNOW EACH OTHER!! :O!! oh well if i knew you i guess i didnt tell you this YOURE 3AJEEEBBAA!!! oo ur comments 3ajeeben!

A Citizen of Earth said...

Hahaha! Who knows?! Maybe we do! Maybe we pass by each other every day obliviously!

Awww! That's so sweet! I enjoy your writing so very much because it reminds me of my writing.

Random question: how old you think I am? :) (this should be interesting to hear!)

-ACoE

Monwa said...

MAYBE!!!!

heyy! why don't u write!! start a blog!! i wanna read what you write!!!!
i am interested wallaaaa!!!

a7is ure between 18- 22 ya3ni in uni
bas a7is ur like 20

A Citizen of Earth said...

I do write, my dearest. Except that I still haven't finished the ending yet. It will be done sometime this year, hopefully! ;D I've been syaing that since the summer. Anywho, yeah I've considered starting a blog. But, I don't know. I'm still comme ci comme ca about it. We'll see!

Hahaha! Let's just say that you're off by a few years! ;D

-ACoE

Monwa said...

ooo can you send me a part min what you wrote?!!
I sooo wanna read it now!!!

ana 3abali u used to write mo ur still writing!!!
aaah!! abe agra!!!

ya3ni ur older??
23? wala younger?:o

A Citizen of Earth said...

Oooh! I am so tempted to send some 20 pages but I cringe as I think back to how the beginning was. It's still not the final draft and there's editing to do. If you can keep that in mind I don't see why not! I'd be happy to have another opinion. How would you like me to send it to you?

No! I am still writing, and hopefully I won't stop writing. It's such a horrible thought! It's funny you say that because you reminded me of something that happened today. Anywho...

No, I'm younger. Try 17. ;) Tell me what you're thinking right now! Haha!

-ACoE

Monwa said...

ALLLAAAHH!!!! SEND IT!!! monwa.als@gmail.com
wanasaaaaaa!!!!! I wanna read!!!!

abaaaaaaaaiiiii!!!!! 7ada u sound older mashalllaaa!!! send me the email asap!!!! cant wait

A Citizen of Earth said...

Did you get it? I sent it to you a few days ago.

-ACoE

Monwa said...

I DID!!!! oo I LOVED IT!!! my phone maydiz il emails oo I wrote what i wanted to send you bas mo ga3d idiz!!!!! :@@ oo madre shfee maydish min il internet!! SORRY MARADAITT!!! BAS IM TRYING KILYOUM TO LOGIN!

Anonymous said...

yaay. finally one amazing blogger left that's still blogging. joy c:

don't leave us!