How it started... Yasmeena & Wahabi 1/3

"so?"

"so what?"

"so tell me why did you pick me? Weren't you in love with this Dalal girl?"

"yeah but we broke things off"

"I know that, but why am I your rebound girl? And why did you propose right away? I thought you were the kind of guy who likes to "get to know the girl" right?"

"yes yasmeen, i was that guy but I heard a lot about you and I liked what I heard so I thought I would get to know you the official way around."

"and why are you so confident that I'll approve?
Do you think you'll buy me with you money or what? Let me tell you something if my dad is being nice to your father just because they're related and were in university together, that doesn't mean he'll approve of this marriage. And I will not allow a guy who slept around and did God knows what to be the father of my children"

"Yasmeen, 3ade you calm down shway?"

"la i wont abdulwahab! Inta a9lan ur 13 years older than me! What do you want from me?"

"yasmeen, ana asif. I'll call your father now oo anhiy ilmawthoo3; ana asif 76aitich ib hal mawqif"

"thank you abdulwahab" she said with relief.

What now?

What am I really fighting in here?
Why am I questioning the relationship?
What we have is simple and clear. Is it because I left you act that way or what. I trust you with everything in my life but sometimes I feel like I shouldn't.

I don't know if you are reading this or not. I hope not. I know it sounds like my daily ramblings but now its meant to be for you. Is it because I wasn't as attach at the same time?

So now you move on to the next person?

I don't think you'd quite understand that these are for you. But they are.

Noora & S3ood

"hi"

"hala.. Shlounich?"

"7mdillah b5air... You?"

"b5air damich ib5air"

They awkwardly stood looking at each other.

"Do you want to grab a cup of coffee?" he asked.

"umm laa 3ade"

"wala i insist, gahwa oo ro7ay"

"ok" she replied.

They walked to the usual coffee shop.

"So whats new with you?" he said.

"mako shay hows zaina?"

"uhhh.... Falaina il56ba" he said. "makint abe i make it official oo tiwahag wiyay"

"3ade as2al laish falait'ha? You seemed perfect together"

"lana shes not you noora! Ana abeech intay oo '39abtena ninfi9l! Intay lee ana oo ana lich laish matabeen tifhmeen!"

"la t9ar5 s3ood! Why are you screaming at me?!" as she finished that sentence she started crying. "lo ana ma27bik chan ma6lbt ina ninf9l! Do you want me to be selfish?"

"ee i want you to be selfish... Just for once can you not be selfless? I want you. I miss you." they both stayed silent for a minute. "asif 9ara5t tawmisa3"

"I miss you more sa3oody"

"May I get a hug?"

"la" she replied instantly.

"3ade nitzawaj again?"

"s3ood... Ilzawaj moli3ba."

"adre noora walla adree... Bas laish ma7ad yifhamne ina I want you no matter what laissh??!"

"lana sooner or later you'll expect me to give you something I can never give you"

"ana rathee... Nina itha allah mokatiblina hatha n9ebna."

"remember when we were in high school and you used to talk about our children? I will never forget that s3ood. I will never forgive myself."

"you said it yourself Nina.. OUR children.. You and I. Mo ana oo wa7da thanya"

"I miss waking up to your voice"

"I miss everything about you 7abebty"

"I need a bear hug"

"Come to papa" he gave her the biggest hug. Its been a year since their divorce. A divorce both of them didn't want. But she thought that would be the best for them.

Is This Love?

Every time I see you I fall in love, even though I don't know you.
I want to have endless conversations with you
Even a smile would do.
I dont know how I feel towards you, but every time I remember you my heart smiles.
I wish you knew, but I'm glad you don't..
because what if you don't feel the same way towards me.
living in a fantasy of you & I isn't enough but it will do.

I miss you even though the time we spent together was less than a minute.
I want you for me, I also want you to want it too.
Why are you doing this to me?
Will we have a happily ever after?

Is this love?



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And then he gives me a smile that just seems so genuinely sweet with just the right touch of shyness that unexpected warmth rushes through me


Every time I read this quote my heart melts because I remember you. and your breathtaking smile

Trust. Faith. Belief.

For some reason I have been questioning everything these days. I don't know who is lying and who is truthful. Everything has been going up and down like a roller-coaster, but you my friend have been my only constant. I don't know why I trust you and have faith in you when I don't even trust myself. I don't why i believe in you. Is it because of your eyes? Because the language of your eyes is phenomenal. Or is it your smile? A smile thats worth a thousand words.
I think it is because of something you said that day, something really important and meaningful.
But i sit here writing this and wonder I sit here and ask myself why do I trust you?

Ps. I wish you to read this and know how i feel.

I Want To See You Again

Every day i think of you and I remember that moment. A second that kept me hanging for all this time. Am i supposed to expect something from you? Why do i miss you? Why do I want more from you?

Your eyes said it all. The way you smile, the way you talk simply made my year. I want to have that moment on repeat, with you and only you.

I miss you and I barely know you.

Sitting Here

Sitting here.
Looking at them.
Hundreds of people under one roof.
So many nationalities.
So many cultures.
Sitting here.
Wondering.
What is he thinking?
What is she thinking?
What are they doing?
And what am I doing.
Sitting here.
Looking.
At her, sleeping.
At him, talking.
At her, reading.
At him, writing.
At them, discussing.
Sitting here.
Thinking.
Where am I?
What am I doing here?
Why am I here?
Just sitting here.