Au Revoir Papa

Under the big willow tree
In the middle of the jungle
Joudy sat writing in her journal
Facing the lake
Admiring the green
She wrote

Hello baba
I always hated you
But now i miss you
Its been 21 years and just a week ago my mother told me that you would die
Really, the first thing i thought about was that i cant travel this summer
And i regret not knowing you
They say you are a big shot but not in my eyes
You were mean and you hit my mother
You were never there for me

Now the real question is why do i want you back?
Why do i miss you?
Why dont i HATE you anymore?

I wish you could forgive me
I want to be able to go to heaven
Thats allI wish i could say i love you
Unfortunately i dont
And i dont want you

Now that everything is out of my system
Ill continue on living
See you in the after world :)

Joudy formed a smile on her face
She is now calm and happy
Closed her journal
Got up
Went for a walk
A long long walk
Deep down she missed him
But she didnt want to admit it
She kept her feelings aside
And continued walking
Heading to her cottage
Where her mother was grieving
She smiled along the way but her eyes were filled with tears

Joudy was confused
But she didnt show it

She wiped her tears away
And entered the cottage