Saturday, May 29, 2010

Au Revoir Papa

Under the big willow tree
In the middle of the jungle
Joudy sat writing in her journal
Facing the lake
Admiring the green
She wrote

Hello baba
I always hated you
But now i miss you
Its been 21 years and just a week ago my mother told me that you would die
Really, the first thing i thought about was that i cant travel this summer
And i regret not knowing you
They say you are a big shot but not in my eyes
You were mean and you hit my mother
You were never there for me

Now the real question is why do i want you back?
Why do i miss you?
Why dont i HATE you anymore?

I wish you could forgive me
I want to be able to go to heaven
Thats allI wish i could say i love you
Unfortunately i dont
And i dont want you

Now that everything is out of my system
Ill continue on living
See you in the after world :)

Joudy formed a smile on her face
She is now calm and happy
Closed her journal
Got up
Went for a walk
A long long walk
Deep down she missed him
But she didnt want to admit it
She kept her feelings aside
And continued walking
Heading to her cottage
Where her mother was grieving
She smiled along the way but her eyes were filled with tears

Joudy was confused
But she didnt show it

She wiped her tears away
And entered the cottage

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

hahaha wow thats crap

Monwa said...

anon: yet u took the time to read it ;)

A Citizen of Earth said...

Sometimes that's all we need... to vent.

I've noticed that with sentimental pieces such as this one, you never really finish your sentences yet you keep the end hanging...

I love the anticipation it creates.

I love this 'new' facet we're seeing in you!

Recently, I've noticed that whenever I'm emotional I turn to writing... I see we've discovered the same solution, huh?

Well, I won't keep you too long.

A Citizen of Earth

P.S. Don't mind the first anony; obviously they're missing out on 'seeing' something great.

How about you try this: next time you write something go with whatever you feel like writing. When you're done, stop and read it all over again. Most often than not, you'll feel very accomplished and will only change a few minor things. It helps improve the communication of your thoughts.

ALWAYS.BE:* said...

YOUUUUUUUUUU'REE BAAAAAACCCKKK *happy dancing*

i just love your posts<3

this was amazing :( 7araaaam !!!!!!!!!!!!
ksirraaaat kha6riiiiii

welcome back xxx

Monwa said...

ACoE: i simply love ur comments i think i have told you that already
it seems like we have :p

ee i do that
thank you***

Bee said...

Sometimes we feel things but don't admit them, even to ourselves..
Such a great post, you wrote it? :*

Monwa said...

Always be: loooool! cuuttee
ty ty ty thhaaank you!!!;*******

Monwa said...

Bee: ee true: mashkoora 7abebti
ee i did :**

7awoory ;*** said...

7ayaaaaaaaati...
tawa 5ala9t reading your story...
'3ayba la2ana ba6ni t3awerni...
so gerait mn 43 straight to the end...
awal shay a7ebich...
7adich cuuuuuuuuutey...
rabi yarzegich 3ala gad neyetich...
ya rabi dom halfar7a ya 7ilwa...
rabi y5aleelich ya3goobich oo 7amani...
elayam el7azeena ra7at 5ala9...
wenshallah eli yay kela fara7 oo ra7a...
rabi ywafgich ya glbi...
wallah a7ebich wayed waaaaaaayed...
salmay 3ala ur jayjay oo booseeeeeeli 7amani mn galb...
chee bosa kbeeeeeera...
oo bosa akbar for u...
mni...
all the way mn el uk...
love u wayed waaaaaaaaaaaayed...
mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...
;**************

Monwa said...

&awooor: ya galbiiii wallah maga9artay 3ajza 3an il kalam madre sharid 3alaich
yo9al 7ayati
awwww thank youuu!!!
ana bosa oo huuuug kbeera min la lai 3indich;*****

love you more 7abebti;*****