I hate that thing about you
I hate the impact you have on me
I hate it
But I don't know why I can't hate you
You know
I don't even know if I love you
Do I love you?
But I hate that thing
Something that could decide my love or hate towards you
When it comes to you I simply get mixed feelings
Love
Hate
Passion
Craze
Friendship
Loyalty
The problem here is that the first feeling I get when it comes to you is love
Because I LOVE YOU
Then again I remember all these things and I hate you
See I don't hate you, unfortunately I do love you
Why?
Can you give me a reason please.
Is it the way you talk
Or the way you act
Or what exactly?
So I am here writing you this letter
Asking myself something
I need to understand myself when it comes to you
So I can decide on whether I want to hate you or not
You are a good memory that's true
But what you left is killing me
You are a dishonest man
Yes I have lied
But I admit that I lied
You
You on the other hand
won't
can't admit
that you are
A
L
I
E
R
A conniving basterd
A cheat
A womanizer
And you call yourself a man
No no no, you call yourself an educated; open minded man
Honey you are everything but that
Hell I heard you are trustworthy
Well kiss my sweet a**
You have promised me
You promised me a simple thing
And you broke it
Just like that
And that's what ended my feelings towards you
Every single feeling
Except one which is hate
Yes, thank god
Now I could look at myself in the mirror and say that I hate X al X with a happy smile
Smile of releif
Honesty
And love
Yes, as you are reading this letter
I wish you the worst of luck
Just like what you did to me
I wish someone who has the guts to break your promise
And leak a piece of information about you
Information that could destroy you
Your career
Your love
I have kept so much and heard much more
They say "irayal shayil 3aiba"
Baby I want you to face God on judgement day and say those specified three words
I want to hear what god is going to say
Or do
I don't want to see it
Because a good hearted person like me wouldn't want too
Now that I am clear with my feelings towards you
I wish myself a happy stress free life
ps. this is not about my hubby, its a random post
love you;***
New Year.. (10)
10 years ago
6 comments:
when will u write about u and ya3goub? i really miss the story!! but i also love the random posts they seem so intresting :p
I have always been thinking if I marry a guy like this;/
the question is, what will be my response?
Get a divorse? But what if I have kids?
Do I talk to him? Or just ignore his presence?
I liked this post, it's soo true.
monwa a7biiiich o a7ib ur writing i loved u through ur writing and im sure a great person as well oo allah i5alilich ur hubby
luvich;****
G*
el random posts ellii u write 3ajeeebeeeeeen mashallaah..bass the thing is kelhom you9loon 7ag nafs el shaay..ya3nii 9iij ena ba3a'6hom different 3an ba3a'6..bass still a7iss bel nahaya el ma3naa wa7ed aw el maghza wa7ed, w chenna you're talking about the same thing or person..3ashan chethii i'm doubting enhom random..
hehe 7assait ma 3endii salfaa ;$ bass madrii laish i felt like commenting ma3anna this is the first time ;p..LOVE U ;** oo thnx 3al AMAIZING blog..mashallah 9iij you're talented ;*
so much tension , feelings , emotion , love , and obviously hate in this post. confusing , but yet amazing , thats what makes you an awesome writer! you just write and write , and by the end of the poem , it all snuggle up into a big bunch of ONE feeling , which makes it an breathtaking " post " exactly like you , you are as what they say , breathtaking , i honestly love your posts!
a7ibiich ;**
anon: inshalla today sorry 6awalt
hehe thanks
N: allah layablich hal youm inshala
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